I’m
not quite sure where to start.
I’ve
struggled with what to write in this little space of mine.
Not
quite sure how to adequately find the words to communicate what has taken place
in the last two weeks. I’m not sure I
ever will, but Seth has such a sweet story and he’s forever a part of our
family, even though he’s not longer with us.
So
I’ll start on Tuesday with my doctor’s appointment……….
Walking
back to the ultrasound I was shaking, I was so scared, but as I saw Seth on the
screen not knowing what this all meant for his little body, I couldn’t help but
be amazed at how sweet the Lord created him.
To see him as I felt him moving was so special.
Then
the doctor came in and shared with us the reality that Seth was very sick. The pressure of the fluid surrounding his
lungs and heart were causing his heart to overwork and causing cardiac failure. Through tears I prayed as we received details
about what would take place next.
Praying that this would work, praying that Seth would live.
I
was quickly admitted to the hospital and began the process of getting prepped
for our first drainage of fluid from his chest cavity. Through tears I changed into a hospital gown,
praying for the Lord to give me strength to endure whatever was ahead.
The
first procedure went well, although Seth did not like it at all, he put up a
fight as they poked him with the needle.
He also moved as they finished draining his left chest cavity, which
nicked the placenta. But we watched his
heart respond well to the treatment and we were encouraged. That night we prayed for no more fluid to
accumulate, asking God for to heal Seth.
The
next morning, Wednesday, I saw the doctor again and it looked just like the day
before, all the fluid was back.
Thankfully his heart was doing well and still responding positively to
the fluid drainage. Since my placenta
was nicked my doctor didn’t want to risk that happening again, so he decided to
postpone another drainage until the following day. I appreciated a day to recover before I had
another procedure.
The
next day my doctor decided he needed to drain amniotic fluid so that he could
reach Seth with his needle. I had so
much fluid. They ended up draining 2
liters of fluid before they went in again to drain more fluid off of Seth’s
left cavity. It was a long procedure,
but everything went well and they were able to drain off most all of the fluid
from Seth’s left side again, unfortunately they couldn’t get to his right side
due his position. That evening I
recovered while Marvin spent the night with Calvin, and Micah at our apartment
in Kansas City.
The
next morning Marvin took the boys to my cousin’s and as my doctor came in and
told me my appointment was earlier than planned I gave Marvin a quick call and
he booked it back to the hospital. He
got to the hospital just in time to be there when the doctor came in. Again the fluid reaccumulated, of course I
was heart broken it wasn’t working. Our
doctor told us the day before I probably would deliver before 34 weeks but I
had no idea it would be that day.
I
was shocked.
Scared
beyond belief.
I
so wanted so desperately for him to stay inside me for longer.
I
was only 32 weeks and 5 days.
My
doctor felt that Seth was healthy enough for delivery and worried that the
longer his chest continued to swell with fluid would cause more damage to his
heart. He was in a good place and hoped
that draining the fluid off after birth would do the trick.
They
decided to drain more amniotic fluid, and drain his left side again so that
they only needed to concentrate on his right side. They quickly began prepping me for a
c-section. Gave me magnesium to help
prevent CP, a flurry of doctors came in to have us sign all sorts of paperwork. Thankfully we had planned on Marvin’s parents
taking the boys for the weekend, so a quick call to his brother they knew that
Seth was going to be born that day. My
mom came up to help watch the boys and once we talked to my dad he was on his
way too.
I
was praying constantly. So thankful for
our sweet nurse who was a believer that was with me while Marvin waited for the
c-section to begin.
I’m
so thankful that Marvin could be with me during delivery.
The
entire time I was praying he would be born alive.
They
finished up the two procedures. Then
Marvin was able to come in.
The
room was surrounded with doctors and nurses.
The C-Section didn’t take too long.
Tears
were flowing down my checks.
Gripping
Marvin’s hand.
Praying
to hear a cry.
At
2:13 p.m. on June 1, 2012 we heard the sweetest two cries in our lives.
Then
doctors quickly went to work making sure Seth was stable. Even though we had no idea what was to come we
were thankful that Seth was with us and that he was alive.
His
birth was filled with fear but it was such a beautiful experience feeling the
Lord hold us throughout it.
Seth
Asher you are such a gift. I’m so
thankful we got to welcome you into the world.
9 comments:
What a sweet, sweet birth story, Erica. Thank you for sharing it with us.
Aunt Erica,
Thank you for sharing your story. I am so sorry and I am praying for you guys.
Love,
Laurel
Thank you for sharing. It's such sweet sorrow. We love you and are praying for you through this time. Love, Jen W.
Thank you for sharing. We are praying and thinking of you constantly during this time. Love,JenW
Thank you for sharing. It's such sweet sorrow. We love you and are praying for you through this time. Love, Jen W.
Thank you for sharing, Erica. Seth's life is a precious story.
Oh Erica. Thanks for sharing your and Seth's story . . . part 1. I thought of you on Monday. Will keep praying for you guys.
Oh Erica. Thanks for sharing your and Seth's story . . . part 1. I thought of you on Monday. Will keep praying for you guys.
Thank you so much for sharing this. My heart is broken for your family and I can't stop praying for you all.
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