This week is one I’ve been dreading for the last two months. My heart has been extremely heavy. Tears well up as I even think about it.
How do you celebrate a first birthday without your child?
That question has been haunting me. It’s led me to the cross with such intense brokenness lately. The Lord has reminded me that, he’ll never leave me and I have felt his comfort in allowing me to breathe through the heartache I’m currently feeling.
As we’ve approached these life changing dates I close my eyes and relive the fear, desperation and fear that accompany them. The pain is just as real today as it was a year ago. Maybe it’s made more real by the little feet kicking in my belly this year, making it every easy to remember Seth’s movement in my womb. Yet this year all I have are memories and the space he occupied is where his little brother’s growing and not Seth.
A year ago I was praying that the Lord would heal and save our son. Today I’m praying for the strength to breathe and to praise him for Seth. To be thankful for the gift Seth continues to be.
We are hoping his birthday will be a day we can remember a sweet gift he is and extend it to others.
So we invite you if you feel led to love on others on Seth’s Birthday, Saturday June 1st. Pay for a stranger’s meal, leave some money with a note in a vending machine, give some encouragement to a young mom or friend, take flowers to someone who needs a little cheering up or a complete stranger at the hospital, bring a box of donuts to the hospital waiting room, hid or give away free bottles of bubbles at the park, send a letter to someone and tell them how much a blessing they are to you…. The possibilities are endless.
I made a little printable that you are free to print and attach. If you do something we’d be blessed to hear about it and even more blessed to see pictures.
Thanks for loving us through a really hard year.